每到年前总有往国内打电话的习惯。昨夜较清闲,所以给旧日好友打了。可是打完后,我却辗转难眠。好友的一句“国内混得好的多得是,混得好的谁出国”让我感慨万千。' q* r( H: Z6 U8 t7 i* s2 A% a
回想出国时的无奈和豪情,在加东的徘徊,加西的拼搏,闲时的孤独,真是愁肠百转。可纵有万语千言,却与何人说!从未有的无奈萦绕在心头,挥之不去。( O- W4 C6 t7 G3 A4 w2 }6 Q: G& ~
好友是旧日知己,无话不谈。在国内怀才不遇,一直在拼争但总是心有余而力不足。我以前常常劝之去南方或出国,并告知虽然国外也不是很容易,但对我们这样的人还是可以的。可总不相信我,一直再拖来拖去。现人已过40,却说出上面的话,让我不知何去何从。朋友间都知我俩最知心,我无法对人说啊。 M {7 W$ n V来国外,至少是现在我不后悔。或许失去一些"荣华富贵",(I can't type chinese again.)but I got and will get something else.I couldn't have them if I was in China. I couldn't say this to her. I hope she would understand me. I shut up my mouth, but my heart is so upset.